So, last March I did something silly. When I got the idea of attending the Fantasycon in Birmingham (UK) from 15th to 17th September, I put on the form – “sure, I’ll go on a panel”. Naively, I’d thought Wayward Wings would be about ready to be published. But even without a book to bring, since I had clearly ticked to indicate that I was a debut novelist, I’d never expected to actually get scheduled into the programme. But I was. How exciting, I thought. And a panel is just talking about writing, right? How hard can that be?

I expected it would be on a tiny panel that would take part side by side with a more prominent event; somewhere at the back with three, maybe five, people in the audience. Perhaps I told myself this to keep nerves at bay.

I must admit that I loved Fantasycon. It was a blast. I met up with various people I’d met via Richie Billings Discord Channel – check it out, and follow the podcast The Fantasy Writers’ Toolshed – and we had a wonderful time. It really was the most welcoming environment for new writers and veterans alike.

So I was still feeling quite relaxed when I made my way to Panel Room 2, slightly disorientated, but oddly calm. I sat down at the table, smiled friendly at fellow panellists and then I started recognising them…

Lucy Holland, bestselling author and co-host of the intersectional feminist podcast ‘Breaking the Glass Slipper’ hosted the panel about Immersion. The rest of the panel was made up by Tad Williams, Kit Whitfield and Tiffani Angus… and me, who by this stage was having an out-of-body-and-mind experience. As I listened to their intelligent and insightful responses, my inner voice repeatedly cautioned me, “Don’t say anything stupid!”

The panel talked about how we create immersion in our writing – through hints at a wider world, tangible details and use of senses. Then we talked about what yanks us out of a narrative. The answers varied from illogical details due to lack of research, to multiple character deaths. Opinion was divided about the latter. They were all very gracious, though and, despite my imposter-syndrome-on-steroids sensation, made it a great experience.

Though it took a little knock at the time, my belief in trying things before you think you are ready is untarnished. It’s a good approach to find out what you are capable of, and what you have yet to learn.

Hope to see you at the next panel.